the w word

people talk about the F word. they skitter around the N word. they whisper about the C word. but no one ever mentions the W word.

i’m single, and have been for some time. i tend to be fairly quiet, a little clumsy conversing under pressure, and totally incapable of flirting – which means approaching someone interesting to me is next to impossible. ever so rarely, i run into someone i’m incredibly attracted to, and i somehow summon up the power to try to make inroads and an impression. sometimes, the conversation starts to flow, i’m feeling erudite and confident, things are comfortable and moving right along. about the time i think “wow! this is really going great!”, the other person blurts out the W word. “WE made a great dinner last night….WE are taking a vacation next week….” in my mind, everything screeches to a halt.

sigh. sometimes, i hate the W word.